Time to Quit
It’s gotten hard. I practiced a good bit this week but I barely worked on, and didn’t finish, any killer solos. I worked on this brief but very killer organ bit in Carry On Wayward Sun. Not sure if it’s even a candidate for the project, and christ is that guy ever fast.
Dude came over last weekend, a week ago. Supposedly a very real musician. Played him some of the stuff… and he crapped all over it. Claimed to be hearing things I could. not. hear. Unbelievably insulting. I was just a hair from throwing him out but I wasn’t sure if he was for real or not so I decided to mine his bullshit for any gold nuggets that might be in there.
Well, after he left I pulled him up music from his myspace page and it was utterly generic and uninspiring so, as it turns out, the guy really was completely. full. of. shit. But I’m not sure that I’ve gotten over it.
I’m naked – I’m putting the stuff out there for anyone ANYONE to listen and compare.
What am i doing? Am i insane?
I have a bare handful that are ready that are so good I haven’t been able to part with them.
….which in itself is absurd.
And i have some that haven’t yielded. And that freaks me out.
This is the place where i abandon it. Give up. Let the site go fallow and then rot. I’m too busy. Everyone will understand.
All right. Well…. that would be being a quitter. I had a glimpse of this moment before I even started the project, which is why I declared it would be a killer solo for a year, why I registered the blog, and why I told people about it… to help force myself to keep going when this time came. Hmm, much like how when I was a kid I got to a certain point and wanted to quit piano and my parents wouldn’t let me… something I deeply resented then but am very thankful now.
All right, I’m going to keep going, and I’ll post my best or second-best killer solo shortly.